Heartbreak. It's not something anyone wants to go through. Be it from your friends, your family or those you were eager to have as your own family. Worse so when it's tainted with lies and deceit.
Sometimes you'll see those stories where a friendship was formed after, or the odd case of two people parting and it not getting messy. For my case, it was a little messy.
I spent the first day crippled in my bathroom, numb or crying ugly tears. The rest of the week, I spent in bed, sick, crying and wondering what I had done to go through this kind of heart ache.
The following weekend, I had recovered enough to move back into my family home. Where I'll stay till I can afford to move out (If that ever happens - thanks Adelaide housing crisis. I had my friends help me move, my ex? I had thought he was at the pub with another friend. Nope, he was off 'camping' with the woman he told me not to worry about. I didn't discover till a week later that he had cheated on me again. That he had lied to my face about that.
As I said, it very rarely ends positively.
But now, almost a month on, and I'm slowly getting back into the things that make me happy; my books. My Craft. And soon, back to work after resting my knee injury.
The Court of Amaeris Series has been near and dear to my heart since I wrote the first original chapter just for fun on WattPad over ten years ago. The characters were all created as part of my Maladaptive Daydreams in High school (2010-2014!) Of course, 14 year old me had the attention span of a kid on red cordial at an amusement park; and the original 'Tales of a Tri-Blood' ceased at one, unreleased chapter - now lost to the void that is the internet.
Since the first proper draft in March of 2021, The court of Amaeris series has become my biggest passion. And currently, my craft is helping me mend a broken heart; connecting to my story, my characters and finding a piece of myself that isn't a beaten, broken human. Just someone trying to create something bigger than myself.
From Aria's story of over coming sexual trauma. Lillian's confidence in the face of inner turmoil. To Aries story of learning to trust those around you despite your upbringing, Kieran's story of self-acceptance and undoing abusive mindsets. Even Alice's and Seth's stories of being themselves is helping me take day one step at a time.
Each Character has a piece of me inside them; and is helping me to pick up the pieces, one chapter at a time.
This isn't the end of a book; its the beginning of a series.
Each chapter is something new. - TJ Deverson.
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